Wassup!?
Nice to meet you. My name is Kobayashi from the Production Department.
I joined Monosus in May of last year, but until then I had been working as a freelancer. Why did I, in my mid-30s, choose to "belong to a company" instead of going independent or starting a business? Today I would like to write a little about my feelings after changing my "way of working."
Surprisingly unexpected? Things that have changed since joining the company.
This may seem like a jump to the conclusion, but to be honest, even after joining the company, I felt that things didn't change as much as I had expected.
You might be wondering what I'm talking about when I start by saying "How to work...", but basically, it all comes down to working, completing the job properly and producing results, and ultimately, at least that's what I felt: "The things we have to do are the same."
However, the key point I emphasized is "as much as I expected." Since I had anticipated some degree of change in advance, it might be more accurate to say that I felt "there was a change, but it was within expectations."
The changes I envisioned were roughly as follows:
- Less freedom in terms of time (I don't like being under any kind of control in the first place)
- Participation in company rules and events (especially this one) is required
- I have to generate sales as a member of the organization.
- I feel like I always have to have my own solution as a company employee (like being well behaved...?)
When I write it down, it seems quite childish (bitter smile).
I'm basically lazy, so I'm not good at following rules when working in a group, and I didn't want these changes in the first place.As Manabe mentioned in his article when he won the Monthly MVP award , I had turned down Monosus' invitations several times.
Of course, there were various other reasons, and I would like to give you detailed thoughts on the above, but I will refrain from doing so because it would be a long story if I were to do so here. At the very least, I thought that it was essential for me to be mentally and physically healthy and to be able to work. I think there was a strong resistance to accepting these changes.
I want to work with these people
Naturally, there had to be a change of heart for me to join Monosus, and the catalyst for this was my involvement in a project that required on-site work at a client's premises.
It was extremely different from the routine projects I had been doing as a freelancer up until then, and working in a project team that was different from a so-called production team was very stimulating, for better or worse. (I still can't help but wonder why I was called to this project, and I'd like to ask the manager, Manabe, about it someday...) I was greatly influenced by the "people" I met through this project, and I think I was especially influenced by the Monosus members I worked with.
To digress a little, when I accepted this project, I honestly had a negative feeling that I would be leaving this project in 2 or 3 months. (I can say this now.)
This is from my side, and from Monosus' side too, and it will probably be that way. Because, at the very least, I didn't think that the skills required for this project matched the skills I thought I had. (That's why I want to ask Manabe.)
So why did I accept the job? I was told, "We will consider whether you are suitable for this job on a case-by-case basis, so could you please accept it for a short period of time?" So I thought, "Well, I might as well jump in!" To be honest, I think it was a very irresponsible way of accepting the job, both towards the client and towards Monosus. (Although I had some conflicts before I got to that point.)
However, as I actually started working with the Monosus members, a small feeling began to grow within me: " I would like to work with these people (Monosus members) a little longer ."
This is a photo from when I first joined the project. There are many other fascinating members as well (laughs).
For an office worker, he had a certain freedom and a strange sense of distance, and even though it was supposed to be a web production company, he had a skill set that went beyond that framework... It may sound a little cheap when written down like this, but he was a very attractive person. However, at the time, that alone was not enough to make me want to join Monosus (laughs).
It's not about what you do, it's about who you do it with
As I continued to work as a project member, the next change in my feelings was that I wanted to become "someone" like the Monosus members. This "something" is different from when I was a freelancer, and I don't know what that "something" is. But I think it's fine now.
I still don't know why I thought that way. But when I saw the Monosus members, I knew that I had felt that way, and I wanted to continue working with them. So I decided to join Monosus, thinking that becoming a member of the company would be a shortcut to finding the answer to the "what" of "who I am" and getting closer to it, at least for me at this point in time, rather than going it alone.
Perhaps he thought that by choosing "who" he would do it with rather than "what" he would do it with, he would see something.
As I mentioned at the beginning, I am somehow managing to adapt to the unwanted changes. This is partly because it was what I expected, but also because I am able to work with people I want to work with and I feel like I am on the path to finding that "something" inside of myself.
What I realized while writing this article is that I'm actually quite a troublesome person (lol).
Although I am like this, if you are reading this article and have the opportunity to work with me in the future, please be gentle with me!
KOBAYASHI Makoto